Times have been better.
Moments have been better.
Thoughts have been better.
But I chose to take this life and hold on to it.
I chose to take this challenge.
I seem to find myself without the friends I did have.
I have seem to figure the realness of everything.
It's like reality has hit a bit.
I am older.
And I have a kid.
My life as I know it isn't what I thought it was or could be.
I hold onto what I had but then let go for a minute and it's all gone.
I'm not sure how to react to it.
I'm not sure what to do about it.
I'm not sure how where to go from here.
I have caught myself wanting to date again.
But I don't want the relationship in it, mainly just someone to have.
The time I have is not much.
I give my time to my son and family and the little I can spare I hangout with my friends.
The little I have.
I feel lost right now.
Not sure where to go from here.
What to do.
I plan all these things in my head but I don't react on them.
I don't know how to take control of my life.
Course in order to take control of your life, you need to know what life you have.
I know I have a work life, a mom life but what do I do beyond that?
Where do I go now?
