Week 3

Week 3 has arrived. I am really happy with the results I see in the pictures. The scale hasn't really moved much, but I'm happy with what I'm looking like. 

I have had a horrible week this week. Lots of stuff going on and me almost losing my eye site was pretty scary too. I have learned my lesson on contacts and making sure they are clean. 

I've learned also that people come and go. And people let you down. But there are those people who support you no matter what! 

After all the emotions that have came out of me this week, seeing results from what I have been working on has almost made it better: 

praying I can make it through this one transition and move on to the other...

Okay.

I am just getting something off my chest because I tend to over think things WAY too much.
Taking that big step of meeting new people is hard. I am not good at just opening up to people and telling them how I feel. When I take one action I tend to go back and rethink what I did and the possible outcome of the action. Half the time I am just being dumb but there are those times where my thoughts of the outcome are right. Right now I am hoping I am wrong. I am hoping I am just being ridiculous and nothing horrible is going to happen. I know the actions I chose are my faults. And I know I have no control of the outcome of it if it includes someone else. But those "hopeful" thinkings do happen.

Right now I am crossing my fingers and praying to the good lord I didn't mess anything up.

That is all.

starting off right

Ok. So a lot has been going on the past 2 weeks.

New people, change in body, new look on life and getting closer to achieve the goals I want to hit.

You can my body is no where close to where it needs to be but I am getting there. As always you just have to take those small steps into doing something different in your life. The scale hsn't told me I have lost a lot, but the pictures show I am losing something. I super happy about the results right now, but I know I just have to keep pushing myself to get that healthier body that I want.

I have been talking to new people. Taking chances and stepping up.

Last weekend I had a blast with my neighbors. They are some really great friends! and we had so much fun!
I know that I enjoy my alone time, but knowing I have those girls to talk to?...It helps a lot.
I have also gotten closer to my friend Sam at work. She is a great person to talk to about personal things and how I feel about certain topics. In my head, we hit this moment where I didnt think I could talk to her like I could. But realization hit me and I knew being upset with her about something that was as dumb as it was, I knew I couldn't lose her someone that has been there for me. We have grown on each other.

Dating is a new step I feel I can take now.
I have talked to some people and made plans. I have hung out with one and had spent some good times. Just going out and hanging out has been great. I know I can't always go out, but knowing I am able to step up and make that effort helps me keep motivated to stay focused on my appearance and health.

I know I had set a goal for myself months ago...but I really want to push myself to keep staying focused. I want to be healthy for my son as he grows up. I want to feel comfortable with myself and feel pretty.

I have survived cancer, attempted suicide, anxiety, being a single parent...I can do this. I have to!

Yesterday I started on this new weight loss thing my sis-in-law has been taking. It has worked for her so far, and I have seen some pretty good reviews for it. The first day I got a lot of energy and it helped me feel in a good mood. Not sure if it was the pill or just me liking to start something new for me. I am real eager to see where this puts in. I am going to get the 30 day supply after I the week one. I took the "before" pic and I hope I see some kind of results by the end of this month.

This diet is called Ace. It's an energy weight loss pill. You drink TONS of water with it and with the results of not exercising while taking it seems to be just as effective. I started doing stretches and crunches yesterday. I started small, just to see how far I could go. I am planning on starting to do ZUMBA again, and I hope to see that help as well toning things up as I lose. I don't plan on lifting weights or doing any major muscle building things. As I know that won't help me lose anything at all but gain more.

I have not been happy with my body for a good 5yrs or so. I wish I could go back the body I had after I had my son. I had lost so much weight having to work a full time job and be that single mom. I still work that but it is much easier now that my son is older and in school. I just want to be confident in my body and right now I'm not. Hopefully this will have decent results into helping me gain my confidence back.

So here's to losing weight and being happy with myself.

I hope it comes out with a huge "daaaammmmn!" ;-)