someone for me??

I am not one of those chicks that can just turn to someone and tell them how I feel about them. I have the moments where I wish I could because so much could be told from things going through my head. Stories, novels maybe :-)

Let me explain an example.

I have been chatting with a friend (whom will remain anonymous at the time) about someone I have been slowly gaining a liking to. (that person as well will remain anonymous) Yes i know, people hate secrets, but these are my thoughts, not yours. I can't share everything or it would ruin the fun of it. ANYWHO!...there is this person I have been beginning to like and I am not sure what to take about making something happen. It's kind of one of those things that i feel could end badly if actually happening. (in my opinion) The person I am seeking advice from has been telling me to go for it.
1.) because they know the person and they actually believe something good could happen

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2.) because he thinks that the other person has the right to know rather they reject my feelings or not

(I say that what they don't know won't hurt them)

I can honestly say that this person is someone no one can really imagine anyone feeling anything for except for friendship or rudeness. The personality is something that I can relate to. The way I think and the way they think just clicks, at least in my feelings.

There are some major conflict when it comes to something actually happening. Despite that, my friend continues to push it. One of my co-workers told me a few days ago..."there's no time frame for falling in love" I'm not saying I'm in love. I'm saying that rather I care for this person or not I shouldn't wait it out to see what happens. Without my 2 cents, there wouldn't be anything.

So, even after thinking of what to do, I still don't want to go up to this person and spill my thoughts on why I think we should go catch a movie or get something to eat. Just a date, something to form some kind of "relationship" other than what we already have. (which I can't share that part either)...(Man this secret thing is starting to bug me)

hmmm...?

Well last night I had a nightmare and this person was in it. They didn't do anything wrong, or anyting to make the dream a nightmare. I was just with them, spending time with them, and something bad happened. (waking up in a scream and kinda shaking is never a good thing) So in this dream I had been on the first "date" and something horrible happened to Jasper. The day was perfect, & then I found myself in fear because something had happened while I was out with this person. Maybe it's the fear of dating...? I don't know.

So this concludes my rant on this subject. For now.

Thanks for reading.

Hollie