6 long amazing years

From the day I found out I was having a baby I think I was the as nervous as I have ever been. I was 18 about to be 19...just started college. Working 40+ hrs a wk at Taco Bell. & the father of the baby wasn't anyone but a high school boyfriend that came in and out of my life as often as my menstrual cycle.

I found out the week after the father had disappeared. I was just about to go into work when I just randomly starting getting sick. It was about 4pm. I remember beacause that's when Hero by Enrique Iglesias came on every day at the same time on the Taco Bell radio in the lobby.

I was scared shitless!!

I was pregnant before when I was 15. Just a sophomore in high school. I promised myself I wasn't going to let this happen to me again until I was well over done with college. I wanted to do better for myself. I wanted to be ready. I was not ready.

The father accused me of cheating, lying, anything else to make an excuse to come back and take care of things. Turns out that he had found out someone else was prego with his baby else where prob about a month before or after from when I was due. RIDICULOUS!!

I worked my ass off getting ready for this baby. I worked until the day my water broke. The father had come back about 2months prior....and we "worked" things out. We made plans on what we were going to do when the baby came. We talked about names. Never came up with a boy's name. (he wanted Justin Cole Robertson Jr.) negative. I was not going to do a junior. The girl's name was going to be Serenitie Lynn...it was about the day before when I decided Jasper. It was my great grandpa's name. I decided to give Jasper my last name. With everything going on, it was just going to make things easier when it came to paper work crap.

I was around 5am when my water broke. I felt like I had pissed myself. I had to waddle to my mom's room and let her know what the hell was going on. I laid in my bed for about an hour as my mom, step-dad and seester took showers and got dressed. I think I call the father 20 times before we headed to the hospital. He had been at a party the night before and had been drinking so he was passed out.

I think it was about 6:30am when we finally got to the ER. We checked in. Got my room. Just waited. The father showed up about 8am. And fell back asleep on the chair in my room.

I started pushing about 5pm. With the father asleep in the chair, my mom holding my hand, my sister Stacie right next to the nurse watching anything that was happening down below.

Jasper Cole Wright. 9'6lbs. 21in long. 5:46pm.

He was beautiful.

Perfect.

And now he's about to be 6yrs old.

Still beautiful and perfect.