Someone New

People come in and out your life. Regardless of if you want them to or not.

At any moment you can be introduced to someone that you will spend 1min to 50+ years of your life.

How you keep hold of that "relationship" is the most important decision you can make when it comes to the "friendship" you create with that person.

Everyone has a meaning to someone.

LOVE

HATRED

CONFUSION

REBELLION

FRIENDS

COLLEGUES

Anyone can anything to someone.

I strive to find someone I can talk to freely with.
Someone that can listen to me when I have shit to talk about. Someone that I listen to when they have shit to talk about. Someone that understands that I have a life and I will do anything I can to keep the whatever we have but I still have to continue on to my life.

No one understands that.
And finding someone that does is rare.
At some point there is going to be that someone that says they "understand" but they really don't.
Then once again...I am left alone.

I don't have many people I can call a friend.

I live a crazy ass life growing up. Nothing out of the ordinary when it came to my home life. But mentally I didn't live it the way I should have. I was lost most of the time and at times now I still feel I am. I feel out of the loop of a lot of things. Rather it is what's going on at work, family or news. I am always the last to know.

I feel excluded from the life I wish I could have. The life most people have. I am trapped in these 4 walls not knowing what the hell is going on. What's really out there.

Friendship allowed me to know somewhat of whats going on. Mentally I could release the confusion and breath air that wasn't my own.

How do you know you have chosen the right one?

How do you know if that person will really stick around and get to know the "craziness" of your life?
And accept it?

"time will tell" is what I always hear. "you don't need anyone else in your life but your son"...selfish I know, but I feel I should have that someone to let me...be me.

Who will that person be??

Have I already found that person?

"TIME WILL TELL"