can't help being me

I am one to worry.
To think more about the negative but hide behind the positive.
I am one to think of the worst of things, even when there's nothing to think worse about.
I look beyond what other's could see and see it.
I worry what people don't think about me and think differently of myself when they think about me.
I think about the future constantly and worry what the past has brought onto me.
I wonder constantly of what I have done wrong despite of the many good things I have done.
I tend to smile to keep people at ease and I hide behind it thinking of what they really think.
I worry too much about thoughts and feelings. Because my own thoughts and feelings are always tucked away where no one can see them.
I find myself to be like this because I never know how I am supposed to feel.
When I find I care for someone I tend to keep what feelings I can inside so they don't feel they have to feel that way.
I give the minimum waiting to find that excuse to give it all.
I have lost a lot and gained more.
I have been in love a few times and want to love just one more time.
I can't help wanting more for myself.
Because I want even more for the ones I love.
I can't help but to wishful think.
In my heart I belive fairy tales could exist.
I am a worryer and a romantic at heart.
I may think too much, but knowing what I want is sometimes tough to know.
and I just can't help being who I am...
It's just me.