I was riding home one day from work and this one song came on the radio. I haven't really heard it in a long time, but because of the things happening in my life, it kinda hit me hard. 

Times get tough. For everyone.

There is always something that triggers those emotions.

"You're gonna miss this.
You're gonna want this back. 
You're gonna wish these days, hadn't gone by so fast. 
These are some good times. 
So take a good look around. 
You may not know it now, but you're gonna miss this." 


 I have been thinking back in my past about the times I had wished that I could skip ahead. Skip ahead to a "better life". 

When I was in school i had always wished that I could just skip that part of my life.
Now I wish that I could go back and make those better choices.
When I was graduated and got pregnant before I could begin college, I had hope that it would all go by real fast so I can begin "my" life. 
I began to wish that I had this "dream"house and me and Jasper could not have to live paycheck, by, paycheck. but after hearing this song, it all kicked in. 


"You're gonna miss this.
You're gonna want this back. 
You're gonna wish these days, hadn't gone by so fast. 
These are some good times. 
So take a good look around. 
You may not know it now, but you're gonna miss this." 

I have missed so much in Jasper's life. Being a single and having to work so much takes a lot of time.

I have gained so much as I have grown. 

I believe I have grown into someone I prob wouldn't have turned into if I hadn't of made those choices. 

Things happen. 
People change.
Some change for the better and some or worse. 
It all depends on how you take that path. 

I know I have chose those negative paths at times. 
I have chose some positive ones as well. 

I have been able to take that time with Jasper and I have been able to see the person he is becoming. 
I know I missed a lot as he got to this age. But if I would have given up, I wouldn't have this apt to go home to. Our own "wright place". 

I complain about not having money. 
Or time to clean.
Or time to go out and hangout with my friends.
I complain about losing the friends I did have. 
I complain about driving a POS car.
I find more and more things to stress me out when I have to do be thankful I have those things. 

Be thankful I can come home to a home at all. 
With my son.

I regret a lot of things in life. 
Regretting does'nt get you anywhere. It holds you back. 
I carries you down more into somewhere that imprisons you to not wanting to live life. 
Not wanting to believe that better things CAN happen. 

You may feel the choices you did make were wrong. But you made them.
It's done and over with. The reaction to those actions are what is going to show you rather it was wrong or right. and you have to stand firm on that decision because you can't go backwards in life. 
You have to keep moving forward. Moving forward towards that upcoming path to something better. 

Every path is life changing. 
You just have to figure out which path is the right one for you.