blessed but broken

I have been feeling VERY blessed lately.
Knowing I have so many people in my life that I can love and hangout with.
I know me and Jasper will always have out family.
These last few feelings of feeling blessed has been pretty amazing.
I still feel like something is missing on my end.
I see all these couples truly loving each other and it makes me miss what I could have.
When I have that though, it's hard for me to hold on to it.
I wish I wasn't broken.
I wish I could just accept someone caring for me and hold on to it.
I love how my life is now.
Knowing I have a lil man that adores me so much, and knowing I have someone that will always be there for me makes me so happy to wake up in the morning.
Knowing though that he will not always be there makes me worry about being alone.
I want to hold on to someone for me and my "intimate" feelings.
I know this may seem selfish,
but I just wish I could be strong enough to have that love.