confusion

I am confused.

Confused on what to believe.

Confused on what I want.

Confused on who I am.

I am just confused.

And I don't know what to do about it.

I try to ignore the confusion...and it doesn't help.

I know I should know what I want in my life, but I don't.

I have recently felt like the choice I have made is the wrong one.
And there is no way to fix it.

I know I can't go back.
But I know if I chose to go forward it would be hard to forget the past.

Mentally my state of thought is to hold back.

But knowing I hold back?....makes me think of what I missed.

I've allowed someone to leave my side because I got confused.
I may have turned the corner in that situation and in hopes to come back around but it was just too far forgotten. I lost it all.

And now it's going to be gone.

The shit choices I make for myself make me worry for the choices I make in the future.

And knowing I can't fix it makes it all the worse.