The day began great. Woke up my son, got him ready for school and fed him some breakfast. When I returned home from taking him in, I entered into my nice clean I had cleaned the day before and felt complete relaxation. This was the day I went out and did something for myself. And I was ready to take that on. Proceding to get ready I happy to say I felt like I cleaned up pretty nice. Continuing with putting on my face, straghtening my hair (even though the friend I wld be meeting in a few hours perfers my hair curly). As the time gets closer you would think I would be nervous for doing something like this. Meeting someone I work with, and having feelings for them, even though they may not share the same. I was in total comfort.
We had made this, "lunch date" last week because we had shared a previous lunch when he introduced me to sushi. I had attempted to try some in the past but I'm guessing the buffet kind is not the same as the real kind. He was kind to me. walked me through some decision, but allowed me to choose without making me feel inferior.
Waking up from the flash back I then hear a knock on my door and as I pull the door open, the man I would be having my lunch date with smiles while saying "hello" as I invite inside. The excitement it bearable, yet not. He pulls out a bouquet of tulips (my fav!) and that's when I know this day is going to be a good one. I place them in the kitchen and procede to grab my purse and keys and as I turn to open the door so we can continue our afternoon, he says "you're very pretty today". Blushing, I thank him and closing the door begins the day I will remember for a good while.
Before, I wouldn't be doing this. Being a single mother, it's hard to find the time to do something for yourself. Dating someone is something I feel selfish about. Knowing that Jman isnt being involved bothers me, but I know him not knowing is what's best for him. Introducing him to this part of my life too soon can cause complications. And he's not needed to be in that part of the life until it's a certain thing that it will be a regular thing.
The drive was a long one, but seemed a little shorter than expected. Maybe it was because the conversations were good and having the company was even better.
We approach our destination at Maggianos, an itailian restraunt that loooks amazing. It's supposed to be like Olive Garden, and as he told me, better. Learning about him is pretty interesting. At work, I wouldn't imagine him as someone other than my employee. His eyes are kind, and the way he would passionatly talk about anything and everything we conversated about. You could tell he didn't want to hide anything. Honesty and straight up himself. The lunch was amazing. Food was extremly tasty.
After lunch we continued the day at my place to watch a movie he insisted on me us to watch becuse of my prior renting it last week. The movie Ed Wood was not that good. But we watched it. After the long movie and after the not awkward but cute cuddling we continued talking. Looking at his face I knew what he wanted to do but I wasn't sure I wanted it too. I was just enjoying his company. His touch was soft, and you could just tell he cared. Waitng to see what happened was the longest 2minutes that we spent the whole day. It was as if time possibly slowed down as he leaned over and that's when any thoughts of "maybe we shoud just call it day before things happen" jumps out of my mind.
The kiss was soft and kind. I'm so used to rough and rushed. This wasn't rushed. It was sweet.
What happened after is something that me and him will have for us. No matter how we felt.
Happy this day happened, I just hope we can share eachothers company again. And maybe keep it like that for a good while. Cause I know things happen for a reason and feelings appear out no where and rather you want to ignore them or just them work their magic, you will have to learn from the consiquences. I can seriously say im ready to see what happens next.
