fear of fear itself

fear

 [feer] Show IPA

noun

1.

a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid. Synonyms: foreboding, apprehension, consternation, dismay, dread, terror, fright, panic, horror, trepidation, qualm. Antonyms: courage, security, calm, intrepidity.

 

 

Everyone has a fear of something. Rather it comes from love, sadness, happiness. Truly anything can be a fear to someone. The fear to fall in love. The fear to make a change. The fear to cry. The fear to accept. Fear is all around us. People can see it, feel it, act on it and some even use it. Some use it on others. Some try to use it to hurt others. 

 

I fear of not being there. 

 

Of not making the right decision.

 

I fear of being alone. 

 

I fear of being left behind.  

 

I fear of love. 

 

We all like to think we're unique. But when it comes to our fears, we're anything but. Some fears are just universal, but they don’t have to be misunderstood
Fear is the enemy of self confidence. Self-confident people face their fears and act. Procrastination is the manifestation of fear.

Usually, the answer is on the 12 most common fears.
Which of these stop you from moving forward?
1. Fear of failure
2. Fear of success
3. Fear of being judged
4. Fear of emotional pain
5. Fear of embarrassment.
6. Fear of being abandoned or being alone
7. Fear of rejection
8. Fear of expressing your true feelings
9. Fear of intimacy
10. Fear of the unknown
11. Fear of loss
12. Fear of death

I fear things constantly.

Just tonight I walked into my son's room, laid down with him and just watched him sleep. Instantly the fear of something happening to me and not being able to watch him grow up rushed into my mind. With the surgery coming up in just a couple of day?...I am afraid I am going to be put under and not wake up. I am afraid that someone is going to be in charge of raising my child and that he will not remember who I was to him. I know the happening of that is slim. I am aware that things like that just don't happen all the time. But the fear is still there. There really isn't any way to control it.

I fear of responsibility. I don't want to be responsible of not knowing what to do. Not knowing of how to act. Or even feel.

Another circumstance has become just recent after I lost my job.

The fear of starting over. Knowing good and well that I was "praying" for it to come. I was needing it to come. Although that fear isn't quite there anymore, I know that it will come when it actually happens.

Everyone feels in their different ways. And everyone carries there fear in different ways.

On top of the fear of failing, starting fresh and not being there for my child, I have gained a fear of loneliness. Fear that yes, I will always have Jasper and my family. But the fear that I will just continue watching my friends and peers starting their lives. Moving on to love. Moving on to families of their own. And me not ever seeing that.  I would love the opportunity to wake up one morning to someone I call my husband and my child(ren) jumping into bed with us in the morning. Attempting us to wake up and make breakfast. All of you know...the "picture-perfect" family morning we all see movies. I want that. I want a man to look me into the my eyes and tell me they love me. The out of random notice ask me to marry them.

Fear of mistakes.

Fear of life it self.

Fear.

Without fear who can we all really be but people not making that chance to make a chance. We would have already done it without a thought in mind. Jumping off the ledge wouldn't even phase us as something crazy because that fear would never cross our minds. Chances would just not be made because without fear they are just simple actions of life. So even though we fear fear itself?...I also fear of not having fear.

We would never experience anything that makes our heart beat 10x's faster. Or tears of joy or sadness.

Without fear?...we just wouldn't think.